okay, this is also in my about me section but i couldn't fit everything in ..
Im VERY proana/mia .. if you object to that its your prerogative but id prefer if you kept your opinions to yourself ...
I've learnt ill never be happy (truly happy) about my body, except for that split second you get on the scales and realise youve lost a few more pounds, only for that smile to be shatered when you gaze up into the mirror and realise that all that hard work and starving yourself was only good for the few pathetic pounds that- according to the scales- have gone but you can still see them on your body and no matter how hard you try to see yourself thin, no matter how long you stare for, you only seem to get fatter.
I've learnt that ana is like a drug; highly addictive, gives you a rush like no other( but never lasts), and more obvious than you may think.
I've learnt that no matter how many people tell you your skinny and don't need to lose weight etc.. you'll never bee TRULY satisfied until you look in the mirror and skin and bones is what stares back at you.
But the most important thing to remember is .. Ana is Not a Disease, its a lifestyle
SHIT. its 2.30 in the morning and im wide awake .. keep getting insomnia recently, espically as im purging more. things eaten today: 1/2 bagel with butter (soooo bad but it didnt stay down for long :] ) 2 plain crackers 3 cans of diet coke 9 pints of water
feel pretty fucking empty to be honest but i know its a good feeling and i really love it as it makes me feel so in control and empowered. my goal is to lose 5lbs over the next two weeks because im exercising more and (VERY annoyingly) this makes me gain muscle weight.
ive gathered a few of my fave thinspo pics here for you all. enjoy galss :) x
Hello.. yes im pro ana/mia .. if your going to leave some "you need help" blahh.. comment, save it. its nothing i havent heard before and you WONT be 'doing a good thing'... anything else.. feel free to explore, comment etc :)) peace out x
